“One of man’s greatest flaws is believing he deserves everything he wants, and everything he has is received of his own effort.” – Janisha Jacobs
Have you ever prayed so hard for something and after not receiving it was convinced that the universe was out to get you? ‘Cause of course, blaming God was out of the question so it must have been the universe, right?
No? Okay, maybe it’s just me then.
There was a period in my life where I was convinced that the universe wanted me to be depressed. As if I had committed some horrendous crime and all the “let downs” and disappointments were just retribution for my wrong doings. The weight of the world was trying to realign my spine and it affected the way I walked in every area of life.
I found myself unable to share genuine affection with my family, “salty” at the success of my friends, and I’ll be honest with you, my worship was at a stand-still. I couldn’t understand how, even living my life practically perfect, I was still unable to have my hopes and dreams fulfilled. I felt like my prayers got as far as the ceiling in my bedroom and fell right back down to the vintage (what I mean to say is old) grey rug that lined my floors. Things just weren’t happening for me.
And I don’t know how it really happened but I remember the day that the character of my mind-set, was knocked off its feet and finally given a wake up call. I was sitting in the youth center of a McKinney church and the youth pastor opened his message by saying, “Don’t get it twisted, it’s not about you”. And of course that’s not all he said, but it was the precursor of the revelation that changed my entire outlook on life and my walk with Christ.
My problem wasn’t the universe, my problem was pride.
I had gotten to a place where I felt that I was one of the best persons I knew and that I deserved to have it all. Of course at the time, I couldn’t see myself in that light and if you would’ve told me that I would have probably been hurt, dramatically. But when it all boiled down, that was all that was left in the pot. I didn’t understand fully the teaching of being thankful in all things (1 Thess. 5:18) because every situation I encountered was strategically set up for my betterment (Rom. 8:28).
Forgetting one of the most well-known scriptures, “But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and all his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you” (Matt 6:33), I figured that if I could just get things right in my physical life then my spiritual life would just fall into place and everything would be perfect.
How wrong was I! Instead I was left with a million shards of the broken glass which held my dreams, and bloodied hands from trying to piece it all together on my own. I didn’t allow myself to get to that place of spiritual maturity where my will was completely conformed to the will of God for my life.
My mistake was believing that Purpose would bring Praise, when in fact it is Praise that brings Purpose.
You can never reach your full potential until you’ve surrendered everything to God, because only He knows what that potential is and He possesses the instructions on how to use it in the leaves of His Word – The Manual.
Release the reigns of your own plans and surrender everything to God: hopes, fears, dreams, hurts, pains, desires, everything. It is only then that Purpose will be realized.